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ఎంత మరచినా మరువలేనివి

ఏమి తలచినా మరువరానివి

ఎచట  చూడు నీ స్మృతులే ఉన్నవి

ఎపుడు చూడు నీ ధ్యాసలే ఉన్నవి

నిను మరచిన క్షణమసలేదే

నిను మరువుట సాధ్యమా నాకే

ప్రేమలేని జీవితాన ప్రాణాముండి లాభమేమి

మనసులేని మనిషివెనుక కోట్లు ఉన్న సుఖములేమి

చెమటలేని చెమటరాని ఫలితానికి విలువ ఏమి

కలలలోని నిదురించే కన్నులకిక  కోరికలేమి

Sunk in the swamps of sorrow
Sobbed in the dark of solitude
Caught in the fangs of fear
Scorched in the furnace of pain
I can live no more
I can fight no more
I can sing no more
I can dream no more….

The swamps of the sorrow were stinking
The dark in the solitude was terrifying
The fangs of fear were biting
And the furnace of pain was unbearable
I couldn’t bear anymore
I kicked them to say “No More”
I was reborn with a lot More
And now I live with much MORE..

It took me days to swamp my sorrows
Months to get out of my solitude
Years to bury my fears
And a life to become a man..
Well, this is my life and now it’s full of life !!
I want to sing like I ‘ve never sung before
Dance like I never did
Dream like “Dreams are my life”
And live like I need no more…

I want to love what I do
Marry my passion
Divorce my fears
Kill my prejudices
Break away the old rules
Give birth to a new world
and Die doing Something
Rather than doing nothing….

Thanks to my friends for helping me out with words when I was stuck.

I’ve been thinking a lot of you these days
I‘ve been talking a lot of you these days
I’ve been dreaming a lot of you all these days
How will the beats of my heart reach you?

I’ve been wondering what you’d be doing this time
I’ve been pondering what I’d do to make you mine
I’ve been brooding of you no matter where I am
How will the beats of my heart reach you?

I’ve been lying to my friends that I‘m fine
I’ve been dying to talk to you for a while
I’ve been trying to reach you from across the Nile
How will the beats of my heart reach you?

I’ve been flying the skies to find you
I’ve been diving so deep to see you
I’ve been running so hard to get to you
How will the beats of my heart reach you?

I’ve been soothing my heart that I’ve found you
I’ve been gasping so hard to tell you
I’ve been suffering a lot unable to meet you
How will the beats of my heart reach you?

I’ve been sleeping a lot dreaming about you
I’ve been waking a lot hoping to see you
I’ve been passing all time waiting to talk to you
How will the beats of my heart reach you?

I’ve been worried a lot as I am not with you
I’ve been weeping to myself that I might miss you
I’ve been waiting my whole life to find you
How will the beats of my heart reach you?

My good friends, give me some some ideas
My good relatives, give me some suggestions
How can I make her say
“How will the beats of my heart reach you?” ?

I am dedicating this poem to a friend of mine. I was moved when I heard about what he had gone through and this moved my pen as well. (So, I does not refer to me in this poem )

I was crying in pain
I was dying in vain
But who cared what I was going thru ?
There was not a soul to hear
There was not a friend so dear

All my friends had left me
And my soulmate didn’t care for me
But who cared what happened to me ?
There was not a soul to hear
There was not a friend so dear

Employers have thrown me into the woods
And I was bound to beg for my foods
But who cared when I was suffering ?
There was not a friend to hear
There was not a soul so dear

My dreams have fallen apart
My soul has lost its heart
But who cared about my feelings ?
There was not a soul to hear
There was not a friend so dear

I drank all day and then regret
When all I wanted to do was forget
But who cared when I drank like hell ?
There was not a friend so dear
There was not a soul to hear

I was crying in pain
I was dying in vain
I know, the whole world is in it now
But, I just needed a friend very dear
And a good soul to hear !!

Mind says, “OK..It’s time to see pretty faces”
- it means I’m almost near the Office

Mind says, “OK..It’s time to hear a lot of crap”
- it means I already started working

Mind says, “OK..Let’s get out with some excuse”
- it means it is lunch break

Mind says, “OK..Let’s take a little nap”
- it means I need some midday caffeine

Mind says, “OK..Enough of this bullshit and go now”
- you know what it means

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Heart says, “My colleague is behaving funnily”
- it means he is a pain in my a**

Heart says, “My manager is kind of okay”
- it means he sucks at times

Heart says, My roommate is not so connecting”
- it means “OMG, I have to live with it !!”

Heart says, “The girl looks okay and not bad”
- it means I’m not interested

Heart says, “What a life !! Have to deal with so many “OKAY” ones”
- it means I don’t have my own home, company or strip club